Love knows no boundaries
no space in time,
Grey inches of snow
Speeding through space at the speed of light cherry red
Pink gums solid hopeful sinful
Creamy mocha skin
Trying to catch some eezzee zees
Pigeons flying about in the desert.. homeless
Homeless
why don’t you work woman
Black,
Inferior sage,
Tokyo girl,
Magic mountain queues,
Ramses the second,
Turkish coffee,
Long lashes Turkish delight
Soft
Chabdat al faras
Debate on communist Russia,
You think you know everything don’t you when you’re 18..
Take a dope take a drop take a droio ket ne drio ket ne gi diwb ket ne skeeo fakkk ubti tge rabuut gike
Take a drop take a drop let me fall into the rabbit hole,
Search for fair white clouds
Dive into bright blue skies,
And don’t you feel like a fool reading this…
On the pier
There is a white gate
Tan skin
We wait
Golden hair
Golden eyes.
The ball is being kicked from room to room it bounces off walls in unison
I scream but the world doesn’t stop.
I holler in silence
But no one is by
no one
Says I hear you
No one stops,
The louder I scream the more aloof
Everyone is,
Help me
Help me mistress aida and the 3 wolves
Is, are coming
Walking down the path
Wolves golden eyes
and white fangs snarling
Wolfies
You love me don’t you..
Oh god am tired I need a shot,
Put me down in a white bed
A floral bed or a bed of mint
So that I can breathe,
How cruel
She frowns that girl without creases they disappear
They become like little insect trails on her face
The trails of years of torment many years of struggling to understand
And then understanding when it is too late to make amends.
I sit here hot water bottle across my chest floating into nothing,
Floating into many things
Floating into being
Once again
But with whom I don’t know.
Why do I need this importance..
Why do I need to prove green is beautiful..
Green is bubbles
And full of buoyancy
Ha ha, ho ho
No beyonce.
There is no you there is only me
I am like the 9 limbed octopus
Odd
Shy
Clingy
Reclusive
But once you
Know me
I never let you go,
Suck you suffocate you into my tentacles
There is no release or respite from the harsh truth is there?
Oh why do people lie…
And why do people think they know or pretend to know…
Don’t make assumptions,
You had better not make assumptions
Or take advantage of my weakness,
Oh god where are you why don’t you make me well
Am I slipping away again? Hands
Fingers
Slippery on the rungs of that ladder
Scraping against the rim of that lifeboat
Oh god help me
Am I a hypocrite…..
to hell with me and my pain
To hell with anything I feel
It will be over soon
It shall be over in no time,
They prevail over us
Always.
Am tired.
The sound of rain
Shsshsshshshhshsshs
Against the wet wheels of cars
Street lights shimmer
I dance
But only in spirit
I see you in the black taxi
Hand on your cheek
Black eyes pensive
You feel the humid
Pellets
Against your skin
Although the window is shut
In the cab
And you are suffocating now
I need air you scream
And the cab driver screeches to a halt and
Gives you a look of disgust
Get the fuck out of my cab
Now
And nothing seems better at this moment than to walk
Barefoot
In the rain
Toes skimming the surface of wet pavement
Coat unbuttoned
Peeled off
And slowly mops up the rain
The meters behind you and it getting larger
And then the shirt
Just a cotton shirt
Or was it a burgundy silk one?
I forgot
But you unbuttoned it
And left a trail along the street pavement
Just you
In your camisole
And your trousers
You stop in front of the dark man with thick lips
And you ask him to
Remove your trousers
He takes the long scissors from your weak pale hands
And makes rapid slits up the front of your trouser legs
The tip of the scissors makes a slight red gash on the thickest part of your left thigh and he stops
Looks at you and continues to cut them off
The trousers that is
And you are slowly finding release
As you trample through shiny streets
Under quickening rain
That leaves iridescent trails along the front of your chest
And your exposed arms
The woman in front of you has ginger hair
She stops
The color is like ginger cotton candy
She doesn’t smile but rips off your bodice
God she looks like Elizabeth
Am I ?
No, no just go on
And I look down and see that I am naked but formless
Unclothed
But asexual
Flat
Neither woman
Nor man
Just a being
Of sorts
Floating through time
Elizabeth kisses me but how I don’t know do I have lips?
Can I feel?
There I go passing through her now
Gaining speed in my unclothed body
I am running down streets
At the speed of light
Making zig zags
Making monstrous circles around
People who walk with heads bowed
People who don’t see me
People who don’t understand me
I get into the black taxi and sit next to….
Where will this disease take me
How will I find my way back if I lose my clothing
My sense of direction
I can only go forward
I get into a black cab
And sit next to Fusha or is it Misha
One of them and the girl has a blonde pony tail in the middle of the top of her head
And just looks
She knows about you and why you left and just sits beside me
And holds my hand
I cannot sleep
I cannot sob
I cannot think
Only go forward
My only way out is the black taxi
Who can make turns
Who can go back
Who can take me back
Who can bring me back
But I don’t want to
There they go again
Misha, Fusha whispering in their high pitched voices again
Turning on lights
Making noise
When I need silence
I need to absorb
And reconnect
I can think?
The link has been severed now
There is no connection to the others is there?
I am there
A spacesuit
Floating in the inky expanse of space
Left to roam
Although I am without will
Without direction
And without control
All contact has been severed now
The spacesuit succumbs to resignation
To thinking about
Times when love was active
So fiery
It almost consumed itself
But the fireman
The jolly fireman
Came with his big red extinguisher
And put it out
Once and for all
Once and for all
Hell is when you cannot sleep
Eternal purgatory is when your soul knows no
Rest
But continuous discomfort
Everlasting pain
And lack of direction
Floating
And no one calls your name.